i love you too

the secret of success is not to do what you love, but to love what you do.

--kris, but probably someone before him too

keep your cards close

be selective about who you trust. don't be selective about what you trust them with.

--kris, to himself, 15 minutes ago

jealousy...hatred...and a bit of grave-spitting

i make friends rather easily, but i'm a lot more careful when it comes to letting them into my inner circle. and once they're in, there's no easy getting out.

with one exception.

i had a friend. a pretty good one at that. she was fun, she was nice. we hung out a little, spent a lot of time online, got to know each other pretty well.

then, something happened.

i don't know whether it would be right to blame her confusing behaviour, or my stupid reaction to it. either way, things didn't work out...over something so petty, i'm too embarrassed to admit it in public.

shortly after, we weren't friends anymore.

she met a few people through me. some of them have gone on to become her rather pally with her too. and guess what. i just noticed i'm now jealous of them. not because they're her friends, but because they can handle her behaviour while i couldn't.

i had a recent dream. in that dream i died. she came to my funeral to spit on my grave. in that dream, she was the only person on earth who hated.

maybe it's because deep down, i hate myself because of the way i treated her.

5 years at xaviers: the short story

In response to my friend Fiona's appeal to know all her friends' St. Xaviers College stories.

This is most definitely the sanitized version, with all the unimportant details filtered out too :D Here goes:

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I took admission in Xaviers' Junior College because my cousin went there 2 years before and recommended it...and the only other colleges i knew of were KC and Wilson's. and that was because I asked my maths and science tuition teacher what to do next on the day of my SSC results. Xaviers was the first place i applied at. I didn't bother applying at KC because i was guaranteed a seat in Wilson's. I was the last person taken in on the second list in 1999. There was no third list. So i officially had the lowest marks in Xaviers Science in 1999 :)

Apprehensions: none. Family concerns: none. Basically i was clueless, and God or fate or whatever guided me into Xaviers.

In the last part of the orientation, there was a 15 minute talk by the person who ran the computer center. Since I was interested in computers, my parents enrolled me into the computer course. This was probably one of the biggest things to influence my future life.

In my 12th Std, my computer professor made such a good impression on me that he became my role model. He was working and studying at the time. He was studying in VJTI, doing his MCA. After he taught me programming, i knew this was my career.

I wanted to study engineering, or atleast computer science after my HSC. unfortunately, that was the year engineering admissions were delayed, so all the potential engineers took computer science in the meantime. I didn't get Computer Science in any of the half dozen colleges I applied at, and so stuck around in Xaviers.

I took maths, stats and physics, because I didn't like chemistry and two of my good friends were in their TYBsc Maths and Physics, and i couldn't make up my mind about whose recommendation to take. After a week of physics, i realised I couldn't possibly take it, and hence switched to Economics.

I applied for a volunteer at Malhar because a good friend of mine wanted company. He filled out his and my form with Texxx (cos they're cool) and Souvenirs (cos you might get to flick stuff). He left the 3rd space blank in mine. I wrote Comps because i had no clue about anything else. He wrote Raga. We both didn't get selected in Texxx, and Souvenirs "forgot" to call us for our interviews. I was pushed into the comps room, and from that moment there was no turning back. This was the second biggest turning point in my 5 years at Xaviers. After this, i didn't care about engineering or anything else. I made some of my best friends in Xaviers, and they're my best friends till this day, just as i'm sure I am theirs too.

I finally spent a total of 5 eventful years at Xaviers, and then went on to do my MCA from VJTI just like my teacher-cum role model.

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Okay, that wasn't very short. I guess it will be a rather boring read for anyone other than myself. Rest assured, that's only because this is the sanitized version :P

hit the brakes, boy!!!

you know you're going too fast when you have nothing to look forward to and everything to look back at.

--kris, today

mars is always the uglier planet

women consider looks as an addition to intelligence.
men consider it as a possible substitute.
if they don't need it, they don't want it.

--kris, minutes ago, in a rare moment of wisdom

pointless

today is my mindless day. few minutes ago:

t: i get the point.
k: there wasn't a point!!!
t: i got it anyway.
k: stop stealing my points...i wasn't gonna give you any!!!

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n: i am happy with my madness
k: i am mad with my happiness

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s: Why do I always have to mis-read Chloe as Chole? :-/
k: because you'd rather eat chloe ;)
s: I'm concerned about my stomach, man. Cant risk..at least mot on Womans Day ;)
k: haha if you're eating chloe she's not supposed to reach your stomach...women's day or not ;)

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half an hour ago, my friend and i practiced riding my bike together. i was on the brake/clutch/steering/gear, he was on the accelerator. i was also on the phone, but that's another story. :D

moBlog from blogger's site

after a few years of moBlogging (first via mms and then via email) i've finally decided to recheck my assumptions.

if this post sees the light of day, it means:

i can now moBlog directly from www.blogger.com

i can tag posts while posting

i can use html, formatting, the works!

i can put my fav smileys in :)

i can create links!

i can edit posts (yesh, after ages!!! missed this one the most!)

and probably a lot more!

Do you want to exit? Do you!!!

I don't get why programs give "ok" and "cancel" as answers to "are you sure you want to exit?" i suggest:

are you sure you want to exit?

"that's what i said, nithead!"
"sorry, just messing with you!"

and i also need...another tag!!!

my funniest tag in ages. here's what you do:

google your first name with *needs* in quotes, like this.

fill in the first 10 matching sentences. skip duplicates, for more fun.

here goes:

• Kristopher needs criteques for work.


• Kristopher Needs A Man Of His Own. (fuck!!! damnit!!! wtf!!!)


• Kristopher needs a family who understands grief and loss and adoption issues and is open to ongoing counseling.


• What Kristopher needs now. Sponsors.


• Kristopher needs to learn to use speech marks appropriately; he needs to continue to learn phonic patterns and letter strings; he needs to work to improve his handwriting, with particular emphasis on the taller letters.


• I never once heard him say anything about Kristopher's needs.


• After Ms. Kanga, the principal discovers that Kristopher is worried about his parents divorce, she says she knows what Kristopher needs...Rainbows.


• Kristopher needs to get shit done.


• Kristopher's 13, and Kristopher needs a liver.


• But more advice is the last thing Kristopher needs - all he needs is focus on getting the system back online.

ps: i'm tagging a few people on facebook. if you feel tagged enough, you don't need my prodding though. just go and do it!!!

back to speed

i have barely blogged for almost a month now. here's what's been happening in the meantime:

valentine's day

went to the kala ghoda art festival with a good friend, meet a few tweeters out there, then headed to a bar near shivaji park and drank till midnight or so. hung out in the park till 4am, then met another friend and biked to lonavla. trekked a bit too. quite an awesome 24 hours, in all...made even awesomer by the fact that no love was involved!!! ;)

sandhan valley

had an amazing 2 day trek (which also spilled into the first night - my first night rappelling stint!!!) with an overnight camp in the valley. ended with a swim in a dam. my hardest and longest (and hence, best) trek so far. too lazy to post any photos yet. will probably do a double feature sometime next week.

twitter addiction

i'm officially a twitter addict now. mainly thanks to pocketTwit, which works on my phone like a charm. it also drains my phone's battery like mad, so i'm usually offline and unreachable within 6 hours of leaving from home. combined with my poor memory and absentmindedness when it comes to charging my phone, it typically comes down to 3 hours. still, that's a small price to pay for having my life documented for posterity (i hope) on twitter.

bike troubles

i busted a tire, busted a spark plug, busted the battery, busted the disc brakes. all in one month. thankfully they're all fixed now...except for the battery :)

ipod troubles

my 2-month-old ipod reboots constantly. initially it was due to corrupted data (winamp was screwing it up). switched to itunes, and the problem disappeared for 2 weeks. it's back with a vengeance now. and it's pissing me off!!!

drying out

i have quit alcohol for lent. for the first time in my life. i don't know why and i don't even know how...but now that i've embarked upon it, i'm gonna see it through. i'll be quite drunk on easter though :P

the walkathon

went for a company-organised walkathon in aid of concern india last weekend. walked 7km without breaking into a sweat. (okay, the sweat was due to the sun, not the walking :D). photos to come later. could i actually be getting healthy? i wonder!

hmmm, guess there's nothing more to mention. i have a few secret updates too, but they're gonna be kept off the blog :P